First off, tons of thanks again for all the well-wishes, for the flowers and everything. They all helped, and I'm grateful. (In a side note, if all y'all that chipped in on flowers or whatever want a thank-you card, I need addresses and all that.)
I'm feeling better than I was, now. I still have my down moments, and nights are worst, but definitely better than they were. For the most part I'm trying to keep myself just distracted with entertainment, although I'm also trying to start with the cleaning and stuff as well. I haven't yet tried to go through my mom's things, but I figure, give it time.
Elder Scrolls: Oblivion is helping with the distractionnositudiousness, although I'm not sure I'm a fan of the quick travel. Because y'know, it's too tempting to use it to get places, too easily, but then you miss out on other things. *sigh* Plus I think I forged ahead on the main quest too quick and had to reload a bunch of times to get through a tough part, and now that I want to branch out into side stuff, I've got two schlepy sidekicks with me, until I can get farther. Meh.
I'm annoyed though because what I'd *really* like to be doing right now is playing Suikoden V. But they moved the game up without me realizing it, so I didn't get a chance to preorder, and the area's only "real" game store (our local Software Etc.) ONLY got enough for the pre-orders. And no one canceled theirs. And they're probably not getting any in til early next week, now. GRRRR. Well, if I'm up to it tomorrow, I may go schlepping out to the mall and see if Wal-Mart or someplace has it, but I'm not holding my breath. Makes. Me. Mad. Grrr. So much for utter distraction. *sigh*
In the meantime, guess I'll try to make do with Oblivion, and with reading and watching DVDs. Because I'm all about the leisure right now. Going through both discs of Ah! My Goddess which I've got from Netflix at the moment (they both arrived today, despite being sent a day apart), then I have the latest Kyo Kara Maoh! waiting impatiently. Also finally got to see Howl's Moving Castle via Netflix, and am now reading the novel version, which is weird because it's like Miyazaki followed the main plot points fairly devotedly, so that I can remember various points happening in the film, but changed the stuff along the way all the hell around. Weird.
But I did like the movie. The bishounen-ness doesn't hurt, obviously. I may have to wait til I see it on sale somewhere, and pick up a copy for myself. Oh well, at least Netflix is letting me weed out some things that I want to watch, but don't really want to buy (and before you say anything about, y'know, other places to rent stuff, a) it's more expensive in the long run, and b) I hate hate hate having to go to a place, then *know* you have to go out and drop the movies back off in a couple days.)
(Edited to change "Miyazoto" to "Miyazaki"... I plead total brain-death.)